Been watching MJ tributes and videos all night...RIP Michael Jackson...

Right now ahyajriah is working on her ego...her main flaw...so much so, that it has cost her literally $30,000...anything that costs you money or your dream must be taken care of immediately...

i've been meaning to take care of this thing for years...but have, up in til now, been unsuccessful...and now since sleep seems to dislike me due to my inflated ego, the decision for today was to googled/yahooed exercises to deflate ego [especially because this inflated ego had me crying for NO good reason and i hate crying!!!!! it's stupid to me, unless someone has died or something of that nature]

...and now ahyajriah has the solution...and that is, get rid of the "I" in her vocabulary...:D hooraaaaaaaay!!!!!!! beginning 2 smell a new beginning 4 ahyajriah!!!!

here's just some of the links i used :D

Right now, I have 2 work on my grown woman skills...this means i am going 2 have 2 make some tough decisions on how i want 2 run my life....by first asking the question....how do u want 2 run your life and then making the decision to consistly run your life the way u see fit 2 run it...i would prefer 2 run my life so that it is filled with success and happiness....now 2 make the grown woman decision of how i am going 2 accomplish and achieve this 'grown woman goal' of mine...

Right now...I'm under alot of stress and putting myself under alot of pressure....Hopefully everything works out and I just ignore all of the ignorant things that surround me....Hopefully, I can take my own advice and let the negativity make me stronger....Kill em' with SUCCESS!!!! :D

Here is a list of things that i need 2 do...
1. Gain a better relationship with my credit...
***my credit is my family....it has always been there for me and i can't believe i took advantage
of it...i feel bad, now it feels like my enemy :(***

2. I need a better, more private location (personal & business)
****so, need to gain a better relationship with my savings****

3. I need 2 network with other people more

4. I need 2 "lock in" more often

...Just read a post from Diddy on twitter!!! I knew there was a reason why i had him as one of my heroes on myspace.com.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThYrOZmrqFY

...Diddy suggests that u do a "lock-in" and guess wut? that's wut ya' girl is about 2 do!!! cuz, that's wuts up!!!

Ya' girl is hotter than lava rocks baby!!!

Also, last month....i found a website that had a posting of [one of my other hereos] Jay-Z's Secret for Personal Success...

I wrote it down in my perpetual planner for dummy's [which i luv, by the way] in the notes section....I broke it down this way:

1. Be your own biggest fan.

2. Take control of your work....do your best 2 make it hot---then "let go"....do everything to make it right, then let go....it's outta your control now...

3. Focus on the process and not the results--Have fun!!

4. Never act on your fears!! Don't make decisions based on fears or ego!!

5. Use money the right way...money should give u freedom 2 do wut u luv...

*i personally like private vip parties because i luv being around people, traveling, shopping

and helping people*

6. Don't stop growing!!!

1. I will not compromise...I will accomplish everything energetically...
2. I will plan my life...
3. I will find the combination 2 my personal lock of success...
4. I will stay focus...picture me ballin'!!!

accomplishments:

2day my addable pic got 1,024 pic comments on the myspace addable application... http://www.myspace.com/ahyajriah

also, i reached 108 followers on twitter... http://twitter.com/ahyajriah

I do this as often as I can...just forget everything....it's not worth it!!!

Anyway, so 2day...i figured i need a new blender to make smoothies and a new coffe machine that's small enough 2 take 2 work...i got my new ipod and new laptop already...so now i needed those 2 things....so i went out and got it...and picked up some shoes while i was doing it....

Plus, the clamp on my chain had been broken 4 2wks...and i feel so naked without my baby...so i put her in the shop....[the "her" is my chain---keep up, lol]...

I feel pretty good...now time 4 that gym membership and i'll be straight... :D

That's coming up next week...

What will you do nice for yourself 2day? Spa, Massage, Shopping?

Everyone needs something in their life... :DDD

2day was a a slow day...but it started off crazy...jus realized the carpet cleaners will be here 2morrow, instead of wed...[why did i take off my watch? i know i must be tired]

anyway, it was boring...but i feel loved and not alone...even though i am alone...thanks 2 my internet friends on myspace.com/ahyajriah and twitter.com/ahyajriah and facebook.com/ahyajriah...i will never be lonely...though i am alone...

why do i feel loved?
i feel loved because people keep telling me that God worked overtime when he created me...[which is could possibly be blasephamy]...and that their dream girl do exist....

....but there is nothing like real love and a real man's touch...these cats just keep blowin' my head up...which is not good 4 me, if i let it get 2 me...

why do am i alone?
because i'm single and i haven't found the right guy that's going 2 treat me right for life....

why was 2day boring?
because the only place i went 2 was starbucks 2 get me some coffee...
but at least i had very little drama 2day...
i didn't have anyone performing an exorcism on me or cursing me out...
so that's good...thank u God!!! :D

why was 2day busy?
because i got a lot of *hit in my room that needed 2 be taken out 4 these *amn carpet cleaners!!!!
i feel like i did a 24hr, full-body work out and i'm tired...

....but back 2 my friends at twitter.com/ahyajriah... :)
...tweetdeck needs 2 stop messing up on me and stalling!!! :(

2day...before the crack of day...i was chillin' when i was rudely interrupted by negativity...i hate negativity!!! So, i'm just giving the "i hate negativity" vibe [which can be felt for miles and miles] and then i was accused of being "the devil".....but how? when i just simply asked....well, did anything positive happen 2day? how hard is it 2 answer that....shoot, i'm try'na get the conversation back on a more positive track...i mean bottom line....i hate hearing anything negative and awful about my brother who's in california struggling 2 raise 2 children [esp.when he's so deep into financial trouble that i can't, at the moment, help him...so i don't know why people don't "get it"...

So, I was called a devil and then a faux exorcism was attempted....wtf?

Anyways, back 2 "being ahyajriah"...later on that day...i'm chillin' once again...and came in contact with this person and apparently, i was giving off that "you're phony and i don't give a *uck about you" vibe...

*history lesson and explanation:
1. this person has "acceptance" issues and it shows through her fake "bubbly" persona.
2. this person visibly tries too hard 2 be accepted and its nauseating to watch...i'm human
3. i hate phony people
4. this person likes a guy who a child and several other chicks on the side besides the
mother
5. the guy that this person likes is an associate of mine who has bought me lunch a couple of
times as such
6. the guy is constantly "roasting" the girl and treating her like *hit
7. when he treats her like *hit she looks at me to see if i am laughing...90% of the time-i was
not
8. when she made an inquiry, i was honest...and she probably assumed that the guy likes
me better than her....
9. her "hateration" [haha] became verbally apparent shortly after the inquiry and i could
then tell that she didn't like me...
10. half this girl's family are cops


.....back 2 the story, so i'm chillin'....someone's cleaning the air ducts....it got dusty...i sprayed lysol...the girl stated she was going 2 leave if i spayed anymore...i told her that she could...gave her time to do so...she said...she didn't want 2...i sprayed more and got called, dumb "b" and a**hole and blah, blah, blah...then she said that she would woop my *ss...although i'm 5'7 almost 5'8 and she's 5'5 and overweight...she keep "egging" me on...clearly, she's depressed and want someone 2 woop her *ss....i'm smarter than that...i know this....but 2day....she wasn't going 2 pull me into her depressed state of being and then call one of her cop o'mailey [sp?] relatives to come and arrest me because i annialated her with one hit...she must've thought i was stupid...
...the girl has a child by a father who isn't there, she has a successful long distant boyfriend that met her when she was skinny and my guess is that he probably doesn't want her unattractive *ss....so she smokes marijuanna and hang out with any random black guy she comes in contact with....sucks 2 be her!!! hahaha!!!
oh, yeah....the girl smokes cigarettes!!!!